I started this blog in January of this year by telling y’all I aint shit!
And that’s not to be dramatically self-deprecating.
It’s just that I don’t think any of us are …
because we’re human beings …
and we’re fallible …
and sometimes we make mistakes.
And sometimes it’s out shitty shit that makes the shit happen. LOL
And the point of this blog is to understand that …
and to also recognize that we can get our shit together, together.
So I say all of that to say that I am and have been a work in progress for quite some time now.
If you met me 15 years ago, you probably wouldn’t have liked me very much.
Because I was a pretty shitty person.
I’ve been a horrible friend.
I’ve betrayed people who trusted me.
I’ve broken hearts unapologetically.
I’ve hurt people who showed me nothing but kindness.
Yes. Me. I did those things.
So what am I thankful for, you ask? I mean, besides being able to articulate how shitty of a person I have been, of course.
I’m thankful that I’m still here!
I’m still here so I can try to put good energy out into the world to counteract any of the bad I so freely spewed.
I’m thankful that I still have the opportunity to right some of my wrongs.
Thankful that I’ve been given the time to be able to grow … to be able to see … feel.
I’m thankful for the ability to see how wrong I really was.
And most of all, I’m thankful for how good the growth feels.
Because I’ve seen so many people who’s lives were cut short while they were still learning … in some cases, before they could even recognize there was anything to learn.
And because I’m still here and they’re not, I can see the trail of hurt and destruction they left in their wake with no chance for growth …
No chance for apologies …
No chance for REDEMPTION!
So if you ever find yourself beating yourself up for mistakes you may have made …
opportunities you may have missed …
or for just being a shitty person like I was …
just remember that you still have a chance …
with each sunrise the universe allows you to see.
Love and Light,
What did you say?
You miss me when I’m gone?
Well, you know you can keep up with my antics every other day of the week:
You can also find all of my books The Becoming of Us, Vol. I, The Becoming of Us, Vol. II, What’s Hiding in the Dark: 10 Tales of Urban Lore, and They Eat on Amazon: